Let it Go - Prevail

Picture it, Sept.. 2007, it's a Thursday afternoon.  I get off work early to go to the Sugarland, Little Big Town and Jake Owen concert in Charleston, SC.  Right before I leave work my mom asks me to run by her house for something (now I have no idea what is was), didn't seem all that important to me at the time, but it was major to her, so I agreed.  I would have been going another direction to get to the concert, but alas my plans and God's were not in agreement.  On the way to my mom's. an 18 wheeler was waiting to make a left turn, I saw a school bus in the oncoming traffic, I waited for it to pass and made my left hand turn - to my shock and surprise there was another school bus coming that had been in the big trucks blind spot.  I almost cleared it but it hit the back quarter panel of my minivan between the back tire and rear-end on the passengers side, rolled me over on the side, driver's door to the ground and slammed me into another car that was waiting to make a right turn out into oncoming traffic, totaling my vehicle.  Firefighters and EMS responded to the scene.  Firefighters cut me out of the car by rolling back the top like a sardine can to get me out.  I was close to a train track not knowing if I was on it or not and not knowing if a train was coming or not (I heard fire fighters radio to stop all on-coming trains) and I heard one say to hurry and get me out that there was a gas leak and they were sure it was going to burst into flames before they could get me out.  A firefighter, one I happened to know personally, climbed into the van with me and covered me with a blanket reassuring and comforting me.  after nearly an hour (which seemed to me like many more) I was free from the wreckage and rolled across the major highway on a stretcher as EMS workers stopped traffic (it just so happened I was right across the street from the hospital).  There were 8 children and the driver on the school bus, and 1 adult and 3 children in the car that I slid into and by the grace of God, no one was hurt, except me.  I have a "God-scar" on my left are near my elbow where the glass from my broken window cut me all up.  Laying in the emergency room and realizing that I was not going to make my concert, I kept trying to get someone to go to my wrecked car and get the tickets out and put them to good use.  Also immediately after the accident I used my cell phone to call my mom to come help me get out of the car (I was in shock and didn't realize how bad it was), she got to me in under 5 minutes and I handed her my cell phone which immediately fell apart in her hands and was completely destroyed beyond repair.  I never found out why God didn't want me to go to that concert, I can only surmise that it is because the accident as bad as it was, protected me from something far worse that would have happened to me if I had went.  I am so grateful that God was with me and protected me (even from myself) at that time!

“Many are the plans in a person’s heart, but it is the Lord’s purpose that prevails.” ~ Proverbs 19:21 NIV11

Thank you Lord that you know what's best and that your purpose prevails over the many plans in my heart.  Amen

WiReD - Chapter 1

Thanks for stopping by from the Let,.It.Go blog hop via Melissa Taylor's online Bible study!  I am happy you found my page!  I look forward to interacting with each of you throughout this study!  I am in Sue Molitor's group 6 on facebook.  I welcome anyone who would like to friend me on  facebook so we can better get to know one another and interact during this study.

Welcome to controllers anonymous! Gather round and introduce yourselves!  Hi, my name is Janet and I have a tendency to control.  I am a soft-spoken/enabler/martyr/people pleaser.  But I have hope, and so do you!

I hope to give God back His job during this study.  I want to learn how to trust Him so that I can be out of control and loving it!  I want to be of the Dog theology, I want to live out everyday so that others see God in me.  Lord, empty me of me and fill me full of YOU! When people look at me, I don't want them to see Janet, but rather the hands and feet of Jesus at work in this lost and dying world.  This is just a little of what I hope to gain from this study.  What about you?  Please leave a comment below telling me most about you and what you want to get out of this study!

The fact that you are here is the first step in the right direction!  Let God continue to show you His path for your life through this study!  Fasten your seatbelts, the ride promises to be wild! :)

“My words are plain to anyone with understanding, clear to those with knowledge. Choose my instruction rather than silver, and knowledge rather than pure gold. For wisdom is far more valuable than rubies. Nothing you desire can compare with it.”   ~ Proverbs 8:9-11 NLT

God bless,

Janet

The long lost blogger returns!

Here I am, going on 2 yrs of being married to the most incredible man on my dreams, the one God placed here JUST for me! I am so blessed and God is so good! We have a wonderful life with our happy little family! It's hard to believe that Cassandra will be a teenager before I can blink my eyes! At 10 she is already the pre-teen primadonna! Alexandria is growing up so fast! She is 7 going on 27! Trey is 6 and so independent! Where has the time gone!?! So tell me what has been going on with you and your family these past couple years since I have been out of touch!?!

Have a great day and hope to hear from you soon! :)

It's been a while

I haven't had a chance to update my blog lately since I've been busy planning my wedding and this is the busy season at the college where I work.

I just needed to write in and express my thankfulness and give God the glory for the great things He's done.

I just learned that my job is willing to work with me a while longer after the wedding. Since I will be living 2 hours from where I work they are going to allow me to spend less time in the office. They are going to allow me to spend Friday (well Thurs. night really) through Monday night with my new husband and work Tues. Wed. and Thurs. this way I can be away from my husband only Tues. night and Wed. night and I will still be employed and bringing in some money. That will also help the job out too so that I'm not leaving them understaffed during a busy time of year for us.

Prayerfully then something will open up in the city where I'm living and I can make the switch. I am just so amazed at God's goodness to sustain my future husband and I. I guess it just took my being resolved to the fact that I was going to have to walk away from the job without having on to go to and not knowing how the bills would be paid, etc and just having a completely and whole faith in God to sustain my needs.

As much as "I" like to be in control things are always SO much better when God isn't the co-pilot of my life.

Organized Chaos?

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http://lysaterkeurst.blogspot.com/2008/04/organization-swap-and-hop.html

Head on over to Lysa's blog and see what she's up to today!

Here is my orgizational dilema: the bedroom!

I have stacks of stuff lined all around the walls of the room. I have clothes baskets full of junk, clothes and who knows what else stacked in a corner. I cleaned out one of my closets with the intention of finding a nice neat way to move some of the junk into some type of organization in there but haven't had a chance to work on it again. It seems I have no time to dedicate to work in that room - ie I know there's not enough time to knock it all out so I never get started on it - I do other things, smaller tasks that I can do and be done with and feel like I accomplished something!

If anyone has any ideas to help with this please leave them below and I would be VERY greatful! The only other area of my life that seems chaotic is my finances and I think that will be better once I find enough time to spend talking to my new friend and blogging sister Becky!

Good luck and may we all be a little more "together" at the end of today!

Until next time.........

God is good - ALL the time!

Today I feel SO much better and can tell that I am starting to become my normal self again. I am so glad God uses drs to help us with medication so we can function normally and without panic attacks! I am so thankful that my dr could increase my medication to a dose that works - my previous dose had become stagnant and wasn't doing me any good - and I am even thankful that I can pay the extra $40/month for it because I have a medical spending account to reimburse me. I am thankful that I can afford to pay for the medication that I need to live and enjoy living life.

Having said that I just want to share this with you today


God Is Good All The Time

By Don Moen Chorus:

God is good all the time
He put a song of praise
In this heart of mine;
God is good all the time
Through the darkest night
His light we shine
God is good, God is good
All the time

If your walking through the shadows
And there are shadows all around
Do not fear, he will guide you
He will keep you safe and sound
He has promised to never leave you
Nor forsake you, and his word is true

We were sinners so unworthy
Still for us he chose to die
Filled us with his holy spirit
Now we can stand and testify
That his love is everlasting
And his mercies they will never end.

Though I may not understand
All the plans you have for me
My life is in your hands
And through the eyes of faith
I can clearly see.

He’s so good, God is good,
He’s so good, God is good,
He’s so good all the time.

Prayer Request

please pray for Ms. Judy (my late husband's mother) and her boyfriend Dave. She isn't exactly sure what happened but sometime Friday night he fell or collapsed and hit his head. While unconcious he vomitted and it aspirated into his stomach and lungs. He is in ICU on the respirator and at this point they are giving him a 50-50 chance. This is really difficult for her since it brings back all those emotions from the time Mike(her son/my husband - who passed away at 24 from cancer) was in the hospital like this the Jan. before he died in June of 2002.

God is still in the miracle business and He still answers prayer!

Thank you!!

Nehemiah

I am not yet sure what message God is planning to deliver to me but this morning He lead me to start a study on the book of Nehemiah and so I read the overview and summary in my study Bible and tommorow I will start with chapter 1 and work my way through. I found a great study guide to go along with it as a study at http://www.gospelway.com/commentary/nehemiah/index.php and so my journey will begin.

I talked to the doctors office yesterday and they officially upped the dose of my Effexor XR from 150mg to 187.5mg but boy did that hurt my pocketbook. I went from paying $40 for a month supply to $80 because I have to buy a 150mg prescription and a 37.5mg prescription each month. I guess I have to continue to be thankful that the help is there and that I have a medical spending account at work to reimburse me for it. God always provides our every need.

As far as my organizing at home goes, I have made a 3 ring binder with dividers and page protectors in it to store invitations, coupons, take out menus, and other things I deem important enough to make easily accesible by keeping it all in this one book. I also bought a 3 drawer desktop organizer which I put by my back door where I come in with the mail. The top drawer holds my bills, checkbook, calculator, address labels and stamps, the middle drawer holds (i forget what exactly at this moment) and the bottom drawer holds things that don't belong at my house like some previous year cd's from the Easter and Christmas cantatas that I need to take back to the choir director at church. Things seems to keep my kitchen table/counters freed up (at least so far anyway!). I have also started a expandable file to keep all of my paid bills and important medical papers and such in. I think I am off to a wonderful start if I can just stay motivated to finish what I started AND stick with it!! I need ya'll to pray for me in that respect AND help to hold me accountable!

Thanks for reading and until next time, God bless you!

Spiritual Slump

Good morning bloggy friends! Today is a GOOD day! For the first time I feel my God-centered than I've felt all of this year. I don't know how/why I seemed to hit a spiritual slump (that seemed like a rut so deep it could never end) and yet today it is over! Ok so it could have a little something to do with the fact that I took twice my normal dose of Effexor XR since I was no longer functioning under the dose I was on. Why do I keep hitting that point and having to get my dosage upped? Oh well I suppose I should thank God that there is a medication out there that will allow me to lead a somewhat normal life? I just wish I knew why I was perfectly fine and then one day out of the blue over a year ago I started having anxiety attacks and mild depression and couldn't function on a daily basis and at this point I have found myself increaded from 75mg to 150 mg and now facing another increase? Is it ever going to get any better or do I just have to accept that I can't live my life normally without the help of drugs? AHHHH! The things you ponder when given a free moment and you allow your fingers to run away at the keyboard.

Anyway I say ALL of that to say this...My lack of blogging has been due to this slump and well know I hope that I will be motivated to continue on with it because I do so enjoy it and I hope that someone out there somewhere (if anyone is even reading this?) gains something useful (a blessing?) from reading it!

and now on with the meat of the message...my quiet time with God this morning consisted of

Psalm 49 (NIV)
For the director of music. Of the Sons of Korah. A psalm.
1 Hear this, all you peoples; listen, all who live in this world,
2 both low and high, rich and poor alike:
3 My mouth will speak words of wisdom; the utterance from my heart will give understanding.
4 I will turn my ear to a proverb; with the harp I will expound my riddle:
5 Why should I fear when evil days come, when wicked deceivers surround me-
6 those who trust in their wealth and boast of their great riches?
7 No man can redeem the life of another or give to God a ransom for him-
8 the ransom for a life is costly, no payment is ever enough-
9 that he should live on forever and not see decay.
10 For all can see that wise men die; the foolish and the senseless alike perish and leave their wealth to others.
11 Their tombs will remain their houses forever, their dwellings for endless generations, though they had named lands after themselves.
12 But man, despite his riches, does not endure; he is like the beasts that perish.
13 This is the fate of those who trust in themselves, and of their followers, who approve their sayings. Selah
14 Like sheep they are destined for the grave, and death will feed on them. The upright will rule over them in the morning; their forms will decay in the grave, far from their princely mansions.
15 But God will redeem my life from the grave; he will surely take me to himself. Selah
16 Do not be overawed when a man grows rich, when the splendor of his house increases;
17 for he will take nothing with him when he dies, his splendor will not descend with him.
18 Though while he lived he counted himself blessed— and men praise you when you prosper-
19 he will join the generation of his fathers, who will never see the light of life .
20 A man who has riches without understanding is like the beasts that perish.

God spoke to me through a message by Dr. Charles Stanley on the message of the Cross night before last. + each point on the cross was one of his points.

1. The justice of God
2. The wisdom of God
3. The love of God
4. The power of God

Sermon Outline
The Message of the Cross
Charles Stanley
Scripture: 1 Corinthians 1:17-25
I. Introduction: Why do Christians put such emphasis on the cross? What message does it convey, and exactly what does it symbolize?
II. Message:
A. The cross is a message about the justice of God.
God is the epitome of holiness and righteousness, so He must punish sin.
Every other religion teaches that people reach God through their works.
God placed all the sin of humanity on Christ in order to provide a substitute in our place.
God deals not only with our actions; He changes us from the inside out.
B. The cross is a message about the wisdom of God.
The cross is foolishness to those who are perishing. The Jews and Greeks saw the cross as a sign of weakness, shame, and punishment for crime.
Because salvation is a gift of God, we can’t take credit for what God has done in our lives.
God’s redemptive plan is unique in human history.
People who attempt to work for their salvation never know if they have done enough to go to heaven. In contrast, those who receive God’s forgiveness have assurance of their salvation.
C. The cross is a message about the love of God.
God is love, but that doesn’t mean He overlooks sin.
If you receive salvation but then live a disobedient, rebellious life, God will discipline you in love.
No one deserves to go to heaven. A 90-year-old man and a 10-year-old boy are both saved by grace.
D. The cross is a message about the power of God.
Paul writes that the cross is about God’s power (1 Cor. 1:18).
God's power transforms anyone who will accept salvation.
Example: Prisoners who are incarcerated for life but have never felt freer
Example: A drug addict whose life was eventually transformed after he heard one sentence about God’s unconditional love
III. Closing: The message of the cross is that the Lord is willing to save anyone who asks. Once you ask Him to forgive your sins, He instantly begins to change your life. Live every day in the assurance that you are in God’s loving hand, and that He will take care of you for all eternity.

and then my quiet time this morning reinforced the fact that do one can be good enough to go to heaven, no one can buy their way into heaven, it's only by the blood of Christ we can go to heaven.

I really needed the meat of the message and the focus of my Christian life to be refocused on what really matters and that is what has helped to pull me back into the center of God's will where I need to be. Thank you God for these messages and the medication that can help me to focus and concentrate on living rather than muddling through life with no purpose. Thank you for forgiving my sins, the ones i've commited, the ones i'm omitted and the ones that I will commit and omit in the future and for all time. Thank you for sending your only son Jesus to die for MY sins (even if I was the only one - you would have sacrificed him just for me!) I love you with all of my being and want to strive to be obedient and open to your will so that I can be the one to say "Here am I, send me!". Amen!

Quick clean up tip

Your husband just called from work to announce that he is bringing the BIG boss home for dinner. Your house looks like a tornado went through it and left toys, clothes and debris lying in the wake of it. What are you going to do?

Well here is a tried and true tip that works every time! Set a timer for 10 min. Take a empty laundry basket and start in the room that needs the most attention (that is the one where your company is going to spend most of their time.) Fill the basket with things that don't belong in that room. Take the basket to the next most important room needing attention and put whatever belongs in that room out of the basket and put it in it's proper place. the other stuff in the basket just put in the room where it goes and out of sight. Then go back to the 2nd most urgent room and fill the basket with your 10 minute timer and do the same thing. Repeat for as much time as you have to complete your task.

Also while you're practicing this process you can put dinner on to cook in the oven or crockpot and kill 2 birds with one stone.

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Christmas Challenge

Today I challenge you to give up ONE thing that makes your Christmas more stressful and less fun. I have been working on that myself. I have not decorated for Christmas at my house since I won't be spending much time there, I haven't mailed the first Christmas card, and I have been more involved with having a daily devotional and prayer time and more focused on JESUS the real reason for the season and WHAT he's done for me. I can feel it already this is going to be my best CHRISTmas yet because JESUS will be there!

What will you do to make your Christmas more meaningful, more cheerful, and less stressful?

Merry CHRISTmas!

Glory to God in the highest, and on earth peace, good will toward men. Luke 2:14

Christmas Party & Share your favorite recipe!

Today we had our Student Services Office Bldg. Christmas Party. Everyone brought something to eat and little treats to swap with each other. All the food was so good! We had ham, string beans, crockpot mac & cheese, potato salad, rolls, all kinds of cakes, and candies, and puddings. I am SO stuffed and ready for a nap! Why is it that this time of year we think we have to sample EVERYTHING and make ourselves miserable? Especially during the holidays!!

What is your favorite holiday food? Share some recipes with us! Here is mine to get things going!

Dirt Cake Recipe

Ingredients
1-1/2 to 2 pounds chocolate sandwich cookies (like Oreos®)
1/4 pound (1 stick) margarine
4 packages instant chocolate pudding (made according to directions)
12 ounces non-dairy whipped topping (like Cool Whip®)
Candy gummy worms

Instructions
Clean a new plastic flower pot (a rectangular window box is perfect) and a gardening shovel or trowel. Crush the cookies in a food processor or place them in a ziplock bag and use a rolling pin. The crumbs will resemble potting soil. Mix crumbs with melted margarine and make a 2-inch crust on the bottom of the flower pot. Combine the pudding and whipped topping, then spread on the crust. Put gummy worms on the pudding and spread the remaining crumbs on top. You can arrange some of the gummy worms so that their heads poke out of the "soil". Refrigerate overnight. Wrap the stems of some artificial flowers with foil and arrange in the pot, then serve the cake using the trowel.

Note: This recipe can be made non-fat by using skim milk and non-fat cookies. You can omit the margarine, which will make the crust crumbly, like the "top soil".

Credits
This version of the traditional recipe by: Carol Stewart

Expect the unexpected!

God is teaching me to give thanks in everything and to ASK for what I need in prayer. He provides everything I need, always! Slowly through the help of my mom and dad I am digging my way out of debt. God is using them to help me to spend less, save more, and pay my bills without wondering the money is coming from to pay them. God has provided me with a wonderful boyfriend one that I can't wait to spend the rest of my life with. I love Gene with a love I thought I would never feel again after my husband died. He also loves me with the kind of love I thought I would never find again. Just one more way God reminds us that all things will be made perfect in His time, not ours. I am so thankful and so humble!

and now for a little something that I just got in my inbox that I think you will enjoy. It touched my heart and I hope it will touch yours as well!


The "W" in Christmas

Each December, I vowed to make Christmas a calm and peaceful experience.
I had cut back on nonessential obligations - extensive card writing,
endless decorating, and even overspending.

Yet still, I found myself exhausted, unable to appreciate the precious
family moments, and of course, the true meaning of Christmas.
Our daughter, Holly, was in kindergarten that year. It was an exciting
season for a six year old.

For weeks, she'd been memorizing songs for her school's "Winter Pageant."
I didn't have the heart to tell her I'd be working the night of the
production. Unwilling to miss her shining moment, I spoke with her
teacher. She assured me there'd be a dress rehearsal the morning of the
presentation.

All parents unable to attend that evening were welcome to come then.

Fortunately, Holly seemed happy with the compromise.

So, the morning of the dress rehearsal, I filed in ten minutes early,
found a spot on the cafeteria floor and sat down. Around the room, I saw
several other parents quietly scampering to their seats. As I waited, the
students were led into the room. Each class, accompanied by their teacher,
sat cross-legged on the floor. Then, each group, one by one, rose to
perform their song.

Because the public school system had long stopped referring to the holiday
as "Christmas," I didn't expect anything other than fun, commercial
entertainment songs of reindeer, Santa Claus, snowflakes and good cheer.
So, when my girl's class rose to sing, "Christmas Love," I was slightly
taken aback by its bold title.

Holly was aglow, as were all of her classmates, adorned in fuzzy mittens,
red sweaters, and bright snowcaps upon their heads.

Those in the front row- center stage - held up large letters, one by one,
to spell out the title of the song.

As the class would sing "C is for Christmas," a child would hold up the
letter C. Then, "H is for Happy," and on and on, until each child holding
up his or her portion had presented the complete message, "Christmas
Love."

The performance was going smoothly, until suddenly, we noticed her; a
small, quiet, girl in the front row holding the letter "M" upside down -
totally unaware her letter "M" appeared as a "W".

The audience of 1st through 6th graders snickered at this little one's
mistake. But she had no idea they were laughing at her, so she stood tall,
proudly holding her "W".

Although many teachers tried to shush the children, the laughter continued until the last letter was raised, and we all saw it
together.

A hush came over the audience and eyes began to widen.

In that instant, we understood the reason we were there, why we celebrated the holiday in the first place, why even in the chaos,
there was a purpose for our festivities.

For when the last letter was held high, the message read loud and clear:

"C H R I S T W A S L O V E"

And, I believe, He still is. Amazed in His presence... humbled by His
love.

Again, HAVE A BLESSED CHRISTMAS SEASON!

CHRISTmas

It's the simple song that I learned as a child but it holds the TRUE meaning of Christmas. I hope that everyday I find a new way to celebrate CHRISTmas in my heart. Share your comments, suggestions, and ways you celebrate what CHRISTmas is REALLY all about.

Have a blessed day!
Janet

C is for the Christ child born on Christmas Day
H is Hearld Angels when they sing
R is our Redeemer
I means Israel
S is for the star that shone so bright
T is for three wisemen they who traveled far
M is for the manger where he lay
A is for ALL He's done
S is for the sheperd's when they came

That's why there's a CHRISTmas Day!

The True meaning of Christmas

Today let us reflect on the TRUE meaning of CHRISTmas, the Reason for the Season, Jesus Christ our Savior and Lord. Please leave your comments on this as well as any other symbols you have surrounding the true meaning of Christmas. My pet peeve is that Christmas has become so commercialized and that businesses are using the word holiday rather than Christmas in order to be "politically correct" I happen to find it offensive that they don't use Christmas and tell them so every chance I get! Leave your views also on either of those things or just a comment about some of your favorite Christmas traditions, recipes and etc. Have a great day in the Lord!

Janet

The True meaning of Christmas by April Shenadoah
http://www.juntosociety.com/christmas/truemeaning.htm

The symbols used to decorate and celebrate Christmas all have a specific meaning. However, with the passing of time, and the secularization of Christmas, they have lost their true meaning. May this list of "true meanings" encourage us all to teach our children and those around us the true meaning of Christmas.

The Star - is the heavenly sign of promise. God sent a Savior to the world and the star of Bethlehem was the sign of that promise, as it led the Wise Men to the birthplace of Jesus. It has been said that in the heavens there is a star for each person on earth, representing the hope of all mankind.

Red - is the first color of Christmas. It was first used by those of faith to remind them of the blood that was shed by the Savior. Christ gave His life and shed His blood that every man/woman might have God's gift of Eternal Life. Red is deep, intense, and vivid - the richest color of all. It is a symbol of God's greatest gift to all mankind.

Green - is the second color of Christmas. The tree became the perfect background for the red ornament. The pure green color of the evergreen tree remains this color all year round. Green is youthful, hopeful, and the abundant color of nature. The needles on the tree point heavenward - symbols of man's prayers as they go toward heaven. Trees have been man's best friends. They have sheltered him, warmed him, and made beauty for him.

The Bell - was used to find lost sheep. It will ring for every person too, as they find their way back to the Father. It means guidance and return. It further signifies that all are precious in the eyes of the Lord.

Candles - were placed on Christmas trees. They glowed brightly against the dark green branches showing man's appreciation for the star of long ago. Now strings of lights have taken their place in remembrance of Christ's birth. Many homes place a welcome candle in their windows - representing God's light.

A Bow -- is placed on a present to remind us of the spirit of brotherhood of man - as the bow is tied all of us should be tied together with the bonds of good will toward each other. Good will forever is the message of the bow and the gift - a gift of love.

The Cane - represents the Shepherd's staff. The crook on the staff was used to help bring back sheep that have strayed away from the fold. The red and white (and other colors) used in the spiral design is a symbol that we are our brother's keepers.

The Wreath - symbolizes the eternal nature of love: it never ceases, stops, or ends. It is one continuous circle that only grows greater and greater when expressed. The circle of love wreath is made of many things and many colors. It reminds us of God's unconditional love and the true reason for Christmas.

God is good, ALL the time!

Today I am praising and thanking God that I did not get the job I applied for at Central Carolina Techinical College in Sumter. Now one may think how do you thank God because you didn't get the job? Well, I set out with the mindset that if I got the job then I would know that was God's will for my life, and if I didn't then I would know that God has something better in store for me. I prayed alot for God's will to be done, whatever that was. Granted I THOUGHT I wanted the job so I could move to Sumter and be close to my boyfriend. But what I realize looking back is that I do not really want to continue in the field of Financial Aid (and that is what the job I applied for was) I just wanted to move close to my boyfriend. So instead of fretting and worrying about it I just rest peacefully in knowing that God has a better way for me to accomplish that and through prayer and supplication He will reveal it all to me in His time. I want to close by saying God is good, ALL the time! Be in prayer for me as I continue my search for God's will regarding finding a job and moving and the relationship I am involved in as well.